“I don’t even know how I should react.” A lady says at the ice cream parlor.

You sigh, waiting for her to pour some ice cream for you. Seung-mi sighs just as loud. The woman is still talking on the phone.

“Excuse me? I know you’re extremely busy but can you possibly give us something?” You say annoyed.

She puts her hand up to you.

“No, I know. Eun-mi this is crucial. She’s dating a pop star now.” She says freaking out. She seems older than you but she acts young.

“Let’s go, I don’t even want ice cream anymore.” Seung-mi says crossing her arms and pouting.

You sigh and walk out.

“So how long has it been since you last talked to Seungri?” Seung-mi says walking out covering her face from the sun.

You shrug.

She’s been really worried about you lately. You’ve been acting strange. All because of Seungri. It’s all you think about now. He’s been avoiding you. You hadn’t received one phone call. One day you decided to grow up and call him yourself but he rejected the calls. The phone would only ring once and then send you straight to voicemail.

“Let’s go eat at that restaurant over there.” Seung-mi says pointing at Sunwoo’s restaurant.

You nod, “I hear they have amazing food.”

Seung-mi nods almost running over there. She must have been hungry. You come in being greeted immediately.

“Hi, I’m Joonsae what will it be for today ladies?” The man says letting you take a look at the menus.

You eye the menu. Seung-mi seems to already know what she wants.

“I’ll just have the same as her.” You say handing the menu back.

“All right. I’ll be right back with your drinks.” He says bowing.

“There’s good service too.” Seung-mi says as he leaves.

You nod slowly.

“Hey, it’s you again.” Someone says coming up to you. It’s the girl that was with Jiyong. You look up smiling at her.

“Oh hey. You work here?” You say noticing her uniform.

She nods.

“I’m getting off early, though.” She says taking a seat at your table.

“This is my friend, Seung-mi.” You say introducing Seung-mi.

Seung-mi smiles and the girl smiles back.

“Nice to meet you.” She says laughing.

The waiter comes back with your drinks.

“Joonsae! This is the girl I told you about. The one with Seungri.” She says pointing at you.

You freeze when you hear Seungri’s name. The waiter bows, smiling. Seung-mi sees your expression. She smiles at you, trying to make you ignore his name.

“Did something go on with the two of you? He’s been really… different lately.” The girl says sitting up.

You shake your head. Seung-mi is getting worried as she sees you slowly freak out.

“You know, he really likes you. He can be really… well Seungri. But I felt that when he’s around you he changes.” The girl says, continuing to torture you. She’s oblivious to it, but every time she even mentions him, it’s killing you inside.

Every time you hear his name, you regret getting mad at him. You regret not listening to him. You regret not stopping him the morning he left you alone. You regret not leaving a voicemail when you call. You regret not running to him and telling him how you feel about him.

“Annyeong!” Someone says from the front door.

You turn around seeing a familiar face. It’s Jiyong. He smiles widely walking up to his girlfriend. He kisses her softly on the lips. You try to lower your head, in fear that he might recognize you. You did hang out at his hostel for most of your time, after all.

“Hey __________!” He says patting your shoulder.

You look up forcing a smile.

“Are you doing well?” He says awkwardly.

You nod, biting your lip.

“Seungri’s home alone.” He whispers in your ear.

You bite the side of your mouth trying not to run out the door. He smiles gently and takes his girlfriend out. As they leave, you start to look at Seung-mi. Seung-mi rolls her eyes.

“I heard. Just go.” She says sighing.

You smile at her as you take your bag and head to Seungri.

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When you get to his front door, you stop. What are you doing? You don’t even know what you’re going to say. You try to think of what to say. You have no time, however, because Seungri soon opens his door.

He was heading somewhere, when he saw you in front of him. You look away feeling stupid. He watches you, as you make eye contact with him.

“Hi.” You say, sheepishly.

“Hey,” He says not taking his eyes away from yours.

“Can we talk?” You ask, not sure how to tell him anything anymore.

“Sure,” He says stepping aside for you to come in.

You some inside as he sets his keys off to the side. He’s watching your actions, unsure of how to react to you being in front of him.

“What do you want to talk about?” He asks afraid to take a step near you.

“Seungri, I-I’m sorry.” You say to him.

“I should be saying that.” He says looking away from you.

“No, I’m sorry. You still don’t remember the night you came to my house drunk, right?” You say trying to start somewhere.

“No, not really.” He says looking up at you now.

“Seungri, you told me who that girl was. You told me she wanted to get back with you. Seungri, if I would have listened to you earlier, none of this would have happened and-” You say through your tears.

“And what? Live our lives as friends, and only friends.” He says, taking you aback.

“What?”

“You don’t think I noticed the way you acted with me? You never wanted to see me as a man; you only wanted to see me as a friend. You deserve better than me, I know that. You deserve someone perfect. But you never gave me a chance.” He says getting angry.

You scoff getting angry as well.

“Excuse me? I never gave you a chance? Seungri if I never gave you a chance then we wouldn’t be here.” You say.

“You went on one date with me. You call that giving me a chance? You only want perfection, and because of that you always set me down.” He says almost yelling.

“If I only wanted perfection, why did I hang out with you for so long? You’re far from what I thought I wanted. I dealt with your obnoxious behavior. I dealt with you being lazy and unclean.” You say feeling your voice get louder.

“Oh I’m sorry, I can’t clean and I bother you so much. Why do you always come looking for me, then? Leave, if that’s what you want.” He says getting louder.

You stop as he says this. You both stare at each other.

You take a step towards him grabbing his face between your hands, and kiss him. It stuns him for a second, before he kisses you just as intensely. You let go still holding his face.

“No. I can’t leave. I don’t care if you’re like this. I don’t care if you say your name billions of times. I don’t care if you leave your clothes on the floor. I don’t care if you’re a flirt. I don’t care. Because as much as I hate all those things, I love you so much more.” You say looking into his eyes. He places his forehead against yours smiling. You wrap your arms around his neck as he takes a hold of your waist.

“You, what?” He says smirking.

You sigh.

“Forget it, I’ll just leave.” You say letting go of his neck.

He moans pulling you closer to him.

“Say it again.” He says smiling.

“Why? It’s a one-sided love, anyways.” You say laughing.

“Yah!” He yells laughing too.

“I love you Seungri.” You say looking at his tired panda eyes.

“I love you so much more ______________” He says before leaning into kiss you again.